Yesterday we found out through the magic of those little sticks that they sell at the drugstore, that I’m pregnant. We were a bit reckless in our thinking that it would take months and months to get pregnant, and therefore tried anyway, considering our living situation at the moment, but we are both thrilled to be pregnant period. Especially considering that it happened on, what could realistically be called our first try. (Aki and I were never able to see each other at the “right” time until last month.)
I’m going to see the ob/gyn tomorrow for the first time to make sure everything is OK and to ask the TON of questions that I have! It’s nerve wracking being pregnant for the 1st time. Depending on the material you read, 5 -20% of pregnancies end in miscarriage, and I have so many friends that have miscarried, we are praying that this baby stays with us. I have pains in my stomach that feel like menstrual cramps, and some that don’t, and I don’t know what is normal or not! It’s all very scary.
Late Wednesday, early Thursday was when I first thought that I might be pregnant, and I stopped drinking coffee right away. I didn’t pay too much attention to anything else, besides not drinking any alcohol or staying away from smoke because I wasn’t 100% sure, but by Friday night I was 90% sure. My period is NEVER late. Early sometimes, but NEVER late. At first I thought I had miscalculated when it was supposed to arrive, but on Wednesday I was just so bloody tired, no matter how much I slept, it wasn’t enough. It started as a joke. I decided to skip the gym, and made a joke that considering my period was late, I might be pregnant and going to the gym might not be good for the baby. Then I really started thinking about it. Aki didn’t believe me until he saw the evidence on the magic stick for himself. Then everything changed. We’re both so excited we want to tell the whole world, but if anything happens we’ll just be devastated. Anyway we told our parents, his siblings and a few of my friends. It’s hard not to scream it out to the world.
Today when Aki and I were walking around we saw two pregnant women and I was envious of their big stomachs. I can’t wait to start showing! Though yesterday Azuza-chan brought Ila downstairs to say hello, and usually I’m really envious that she and Bunny have a baby, but yesterday seeing Ila just made me look more forward to seeing my own baby’s face. I probably shouldn’t envy anyone’s big stomach and just enjoy every single day of this pregnancy because it’s going to be over before you know it. Well, it will be over on December 14th according to all of the calendars I’ve checked.
Last night I could barely fall asleep and then mom woke me up in the middle of the night with a phone call, and I couldn’t fall back asleep so I was on the internet for a few hours reading into various pregnancy issues. I know I feel pregnant, but I don’t have morning sickness yet, although this morning I felt quite queasy, there was no vomiting or anything, and I haven’t had any implantation bleeding, so I’m worried that the baby hasn’t implanted itself yet, which lead to a friend’s miscarriage. But it seems that lots of women don’t experience bleeding. I keep having all these different types of pains in my abdomen though. I can’t wait to see the doctor tomorrow and have her tell me that everything is OK. It would be great it we could see the baby! Or hear the heartbeat, but I’m not even 6 weeks yet, I caught this baby REALLY early! I almost wish I hadn’t. If it took me just a little longer, than I would be less worried about miscarriage. These next 3 weeks are the most important to get past. I’ve never wanted a period of time to pass so quickly in my life!